Lamictal is my saving grace

Since I have switched to lamictal from seroquel, my life is so much better. I'm not as depressed..anxiety is still there a bit. Dr did up my Zoloft to 100mg. I'm hopeing that helps out a lot. Irritablity never seems to go away though. I'm hopeing that when my meds increase, the irritability will go away. It's still hard to think positive about pretty much anything. I'm not saying I'm a pessimist, but I'm no where near an optimist.
Yesterday was weird.  I have no really had many mood swings...like non at all actually.. but yesterday I had one and it was not good. Severe depression came over Me out of no where. All of the sudden I didn't want to be around anyone..I just wanted my bed and to sleep.
Motivation is still difficult as well. It's so hard to find the time or energy to get laundry and cleaning done. It has gotten horrible..

Seroquel

Day five on seroquel. I don't see any difference in my mood or moods. All it does is make me sleepy. I almost feel a bit drunk on it. I don't know how long it takes to kick in but it hasn't done me any good at all. If anything, it has made things a bit worse.  Heart palpitations, zombie like feeling, no energy.. doesn't seem like it is working to me :(  I

One day.. just one day at a time. Shouldn't be too hard, right?

Trying to get past the past, and concentrate on the present has honestly been the hardest part about this break up, also for the fact that I don't know how to be single. I don't know how to be alone. It all ..is honestly beyond me. Date someone for four years, be single for a year, and then date another person for four years. Wow did I ever fuck things up for myself hahaha. I shouldn't have dated anyone. Ever. :) That would have worked.

On another note, start teaching preschool in October. I can't wait. I cannot believe I am done with my CDA .. so happy about it.

Lets see how long it will be until I crack one open.

Damn its been a long f***ing week.